horemones.

I hate hormones.
they suck. big time.
I just had a long talk with Hope...
she is just getting to the stage where she wants to become a young lady;
but also wants to stay a little girl.
her body is a whirlwind of different chemicals and feelings!!
how else do you deal with that other than T E A R S .
so many things are exaggerated in her mind!!
and the worst part is; she believes them.
but who of us doesn't??
when I went through that I said the same exact things!!
even today I still find myself crying with my mum over not feeling beautiful or wanted...
I am so sad for Hope... I wish I could smack her, speak the truth, and have her believe it!
but things don't work that way...
she feels so helpless!!

"I want to feel beautiful;
I want to feel loved;
I want to feel cared for;
I want to sing beautifully!!"

all of these things and more she cries about...
and I know I have said the exact same things.
I want her to know that it gets better, that things don't stay so hard for long...
she IS beautiful
she IS loved
she IS cared for
and she DOES sing beautifully.
when she gets older and matures I will need a really big stick;
boys are going to be all over her and her gorgeousness!
but that doesn't matter, because right now she feels ugly and unwanted.

as she left our room I told her,
"Hope, this is normal. Every young woman goes through this; I did, mum did, Miranda will, Jayla will, so will Tarah! It will get better even though it sucks right now. And though I know it won't help;
I think you're beautiful, and I love you very much."
I don't even know if that helped.
but I did my part;
as I will do again tomorrow and the next day I am sure!

I LOVE MY LITTLE SISTER.
&Amber Lynn;